As I Bleed (Demo)

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1.	Believe In Me	lyrics
Written by: Steven W. © Copyright 2016, All Rights Reserved. Use Permission Why have, you gone away? So far, away from me. Whittling around, in your decay. Does it blind, what you see? Have you, found your way? Dose it make, your ears bleed? Are you just, here to play? Or are you, here in need??? Chorus: I am the fire, I am the flame. I'm the desire, I am the name. I am your Lord, one in the same. Believe in me, believe in me... Who's shoulder do, you lye on? When the pain's, too much to bare. Who's shoulder do, you cry on? When no one, really cares. Who's heart do, you rely on? When no one else, is there. Who's mind do, you confine on? When no one else, is fare... Bridge: When no one, else is there. When no one, shed's a tear. When no one, else is there. Tell me, do you fear??? Why have, you gone away? So far, away from me. Whittling around, in your decay. Does it blind, what you see? Believe in me...
2.	Modern Day Asylum	lyrics
Written by: Steven W. © Copyright 2009, All Rights Reserved. Use Permission I once found it hard, to live my life, to what you see. I once fond it hard, to live what i believe. Hey Lord at times, I found it hard, to hear you in me.... (Ps. 119:49-56) PreChorus: For the clouds where dark, the rain's coming down. Nothing but fear, was here to surround. Pictures of death, where in my mind, no more love to find... (Ps. 69:19-21) Chorus: Modern Day Asylum... (4x) (Ps. 27:4-5) The one's, gone from existence. Sitting in the shallow graves, of my padded cell. (Ps. 27:7-14) Rotting away, at my mind, it numbed the pain. How much, was hard to tell. (Ps. 69:16-18) I was still alive, yet dying in my shame. Lord i fell!!! (Ps. 88:1-5) I once cried, emotions take there toll. On my mind, and on my soul. On the outside, i felt sane. Living day to day, in my shame. Lord show me, an exit out, of this asylum. bring answers, to my pain... (Ps. 69:5-12) You healed the man, i was within. Freed my soul, bore my sin. You broke the, man I'd become. And set me, free from this, modern day asylum... (Ps. 69))
3.	I'm Falling	lyrics
Written by: Steven W. © Copyright 2009, All Rights Reserved. Use Permission I'm falling, I can't get up. I fallen down, to my knees. (2 Sam. 24:14) My life has, stalled in dismay. My heart, no longer sees. (Ps. 61:1) My flesh, has taken over. My soul has, decided to submit. It has gotten, in the way. I so badly, want to fall and quit... (Ps. 102:1-7) Chorus: And I'm falling, on a downward spiral, I've fallen to my knees. I'm falling on, a downward spiral. Lord please tell me, am i a man who sees, as i bleed... My blood has, turned to water. It's no more, thicker then spit. it's gotten, in the way. I can't stand, i can't sit. My mind's filled, with horror. For this has, never happened before. (Ps. 27:7-10) My head's filled, with dreams. With sanity and, creatures that sore... (Ps. 101:1-4) (Chorus:) I've fallen, into a dream state. God have you forgotten, to wake me. The raven cries, your soon dead. For the mud's, too thick to see. Lord I'm sorry, i fell asleep. When i was, to be awake. God please, forgive this fool. I promise to, stay awake... (Ps. 27:1-5)
4.	Angel In Ice	lyrics
Written by: Steven W. © Copyright 2016, All Rights Reserved. Use Permission Time has past, sleep never stays. And I will, love you always. I felt pleasure, I felt dismay. I feel detention, as you walk away... Chorus: 1 Can you touch, the stars in the sky? Can you teach me, how to fly? Can you taste, the salt in my tears? Hey Girl, do you know, my fears??? You remind me, of an angle in ice. How the beauty, of you so nice. You know the birds, cry out your name. And my mind, it takes the blame... Chorus:2 For can you touch, the stars in the sky? Can you teach me, how to fly? Can you taste, the salt in my tears? Hey Girl, do you know, my fears??? Mother caught us, in a pond again. A pond of dreams, can't quite remember when. For I'm lost in your eye's, I drown in your sea. You Know I wear no disguise, when your with me... Chorus: 3 For can you touch, the stars in the sky? Oh can you teach me, how to fly? Can you taste, the salt in my tears? Oh Girl, do you know, my fears? Can you touch, the stars in the sky? Oh can you teach me, how to fly? Can you taste, the salt in my tears? Oh Girl, do you know, my fears? Hey Girl, do you know, my fears???
5.	John Doe	lyrics
John Doe Written by: Steven W. © Copyright 2009, All Rights Reserved. Use Permission. You think about death, all night long. And with every breath, self-esteem sings a song. Sometimes you find an exit, an open door. Sometimes you quit, and scream what for... Chorus: Shot gun, life's no fun. Hand-full of pills, and unpaid bills. Shot gun, there's nowhere to run, There's nowhere to go, for this john doe... I know the words, are never said. To your face, in the night. Either, every one's mislead. Or they've just, lost their sight. Your face is, never felt. So you don't, now how to love. Brought up by, the shut up belt. It fits you, like a glove... Bridge: You where, never hugged. So contact, is something new. When asked you shrug, and say why do you. You don't need, a reason to die. There are too many, to give. Striving without love, you just need, a reason to live...
6.	Wounded	lyrics
Written by: Steven W. © Copyright 2009, All Rights Reserved. Use Permission I heard gunfire, no bullets found. something pierced me, but no blood was around. I felt the pain of words, never to hit the ground. I cried out for help, no helps found... Laid myself down, but there's no bed. Searched this broken mind, but my soul's dead. Bitter thoughts that now, darken my head. Left bitter broken & mislead... Chorus: 1 Lord God I'm wounded inside, I know in you I can confine. Lord God I'm wounded inside, I want to fly... oh let me fly... I heard rushing water, there was no stream. I opened my mouth, but there was no scream. I felt the pain, of words I never see. it's those words, that healed me... I heard gunfire, no bullets found. something pierced me, but no blood was around. I heard wounding words, hitting the ground. I cried out for love, and I was found... Chorus: 2 Lord God I was wounded inside, but I knew in you I could confine. Lord God I was wounded inside,, I want to fly...Now watch me fly...
7.	Prisoners Of Oz	lyrics
Written by: Steven W. © Copyright 2009, All Rights Reserved. Use Permission The prophets scream, of a bloody war. Oh my Lord, I've been here before. Can you see,the creators of my eye's? Can you see beyond, my bloody disguise??? Pagan images search, through my broken mind. Unto the flesh, I am confined. Run your brass nails, again through my brain. And tell me, if I'm sane... Chorus: Another trip down, the yellow brick road. Grasping the sin, that should've been sold. Tell me why, I put up a facade. Is it because I've become, another prisoner of oz? another prisoner of oz??? A Scarecrow messiah, I see. He says he can, set me free. We met a man, hard as tin. For he had, no heart within. Come with us, the scarecrow said. I can take, away your sin. We're off to, see the King. My father, and are friend... A lion appeared, to scare us away. To judge everything we do, Everything we say. But on the inside, he's frightened of his own decay. Scarecrow forgive me, be a light unto my cause. Take me to, your emerald city. Set me free, from oz...
8.	My Wings (Demo Version) 03:29	lyrics	buy track
Written by: Steven W. © Copyright 2009, All Rights Reserved. Use Permission Oh Father did I, cut the strings? When I gave up, on everyone and everything. Did I rely, on the vanity, of broken things? When I decided, to get up and run... You know accusers of mind, stood like words in stone. They dug in, like mothers scorn, at the back door. You saw me there, when I'd lie, naked and alone. You'd comfort me, when I was left, broken and sore... Chorus 1: Once I wanted, to be me. Crying in vein, this I'd scream. Now that I've, got my wings. Lord, I'm never free... I was born, a fool at eighteen. Def and dumb, I wanted more, I wanted everything. I wanted to be strong, I wanted to be lean. Till I was caught, by human propensity. Father you tore into, the deepest part of me. Like a father, to his son. You loved me, and you freed me. You didn't tell, of what I'd done... Chorus 2: Now that I see, the the love you have for me. Crying out to you, this I scream. Now that I've, got your wings. Lord, I'm finally free...
9.	Is It Time To Play House	lyrics
Written by: Steven W. © Copyright 2016, All Rights Reserved. Use Permission Where is the little girl, I used to know? Making picture perfect, angels in the snow. Where is the innocence, that used to make me smile. now another daydream, with no more to reconcile... Oh my love, emotional suicide...(2x) Chorus 1: Is it time to play house, my love? Is it time to love you or run away? Is it time to play house, my dear? Is it time to love you in your decay? Is it time to play house, my love? Is it time to love you with nothing to say? Is it time to play house, my dear? Is it time to love you, as you push me away? As you throw me away... Where is the angel, that once flu my way. Knowing what I'd do, knowing what I'd say. Where is the one, on which I could rely. Now another heartbreak, another reason to cry... Oh my love, emotional suicide...(2x) Chorus 2: You say you've returned to Christ, my love? But have you forgotten the price we've paid? You say you've returned to Christ, my dear? But do you remember the vows we laid? Is it time to play house, my love? Is it time to love you in your dismay? Is it time to play house, my dear? Is it time to love you, as you push me away? As you throw me away... Bridge: It's been along time since, I've seen your smile. I once missed your taste, I've missed you all the while. I've missed the innocence, that I once found. But I now found freedom, where I once was bound....
10.	Alone	lyrics
© Copyright 2009, All Rights Reserved. Use Permission I've notice, the warning signs. Even before you, hit the floor. I've noticed, the hurting binds, Even before you, slammed the door... I've notice, the feeling inside, I know, it's so hard to ignore. I've notice, your frozen pride. With hands, aching and sore.... Chorus: This is your hidden prison, it isn't made of flesh and bone. It's bars are fears and reason, leaving you feeling all alone... I've silenced, the gun in hand. Before it hit, the cold floor. Child I've heard you cry, Lord i don't wanna sin anymore... Bridge: Your heart is, bound by a thread. You've been hurt, you've been mislead. At times, You've been left to fate. You've cried find me, before it's too late... (Chorus:) (Spoken) Child you've cried, Lord Help me, help me. I don't want, to sin anymore. You've said, Lord take this gun, before it hit's the floor. My Lord help me, save me. I don't want, to sin anymore...
11.	Battle Cry	lyrics
Written by: Steven W. © Copyright 2009, All Rights Reserved. Use Permission I can feel the echo's, through out the silence. In this enraged inferno, no one cares to see. I can sense the cries, though out the violence. Cries that tell the stories, of the brave and the free. Oh my child, oh my child, when will you see??? Chorus: 1 Mother's milk, has run dry. In the distance, I can still hear the battle cry. I know this confusion, has made you wounder why. Oh my child, to you who am I? I can hear the screams, everyone else has feared. I'm the one who comforts, when no one else is there. Why do you cower, now that the end is drawing near. I can see the tainted dreams, within your stair... Chorus: 2 What's a mothers worth, without her child? What a fathers worth, without his son's anger reconciled. I can taste the tears, as they fall to the floor. Oh my child, don't slam the back door... My son, My son, I'm calling you out. To become the man, I've called you to be. My son, My son, there's no need to doubt me. I've come, so that you might be free... Can I love you, I long to love you. Can I hold you, I long to hold you. My child, I long to hold you...
12.	Mother	lyrics
Written by: Steven W. © Copyright 2018, All Rights Reserved. Use Permission "It Is Not The End Of Your Journey That Counts...It Is Who You've Touched Along The Way." Mother, I can see the love, in your eye's. You know if i could fly, i swear I'd cry. And Mother, I'll love you, till the end of time. No better words, to express, no better rhymes... Chorus: What else can i say, to tell you how i feel? What else can i do, my love for you is so real... And Mother, your now with, the angels on high. To praise his holy name, may the Lord be magnified. And Mother, I know your will to serve, so devine, From the love you expressed, to the hope you gave, so kind... (Bridge:) Mother, I can see the love, in your eye's. I hope you knew, what you ment to me. the many tears I cried. And Mother, I'll love you, till the end of time. No better words, to express, no better rhymes...
13.	Lost In Time (For Evermore)	lyrics
Written by: Steven W. © Copyright 2012, All Rights Reserved. Use Permission We're sorry to hear, we'll never see you again. We're sorry to learn, you've chosen death instead. You seemed so kind, you had so many friends. You've ignored all warning, you've been misled... Chorus: Your Lost in time for evermore, Oh My Child, So Lost in time for evermore... We're sorry to see, you've strayed so far. We'll think of you, till the end of time. We tried to tell you of a king, beyond the stars. We couldn't stop you, from closing your mind... We tried to warn you, of the horror you'd find. We warned you of, the method of his disguise. We can't help you now, you've left your life behind. We can't help you now, you've listened to his lies... Your boat is ashore, you're lost at sea... Oh Child, I wait for you, Come Back To Me. Your boat is ashore, you're lost at sea... Oh Child, I wait for you, Child Come Back To Me, Come Back To Me....
14.	I Am The Christ	lyrics
© Copyright 2009, All Rights Reserved. Use Permission I am the chosen one, first born of the dead. I am the simple one, for you my blood was shed. I'm the forsaken one, crucified to set you free. And here I cry for you, on bended knee... I am The Christ, (3x) I Am the... I am the Christ, (2x) I'm the forsaken one. Crucified upon this bloody tree. I am the Christ, (2x) I'm the simple one. Child when will you, open your eye's and see... Chorus: How many times, must the reaper rape you? Till you understand, I can set you free. How many times, must he forsake you? Till you open your eye's, and cry out to me... (Cry out to me my child, cry out to me...) (Pre-Verse:) I am the Christ, (2x) first born of the dead. Then crucified to set you free. I am the Christ, (2x) the one who's blood was shed. And here i cry for you, on bended knee... (Chorus:) (Pre-Verse:) I am the Christ, (2x) I'm the chosen one. beaten and broken to set you free. I am the Christ, (2x) The forgotten one. Child with everything you say, remember me... (Chorus:) I am The Christ, (3x) I Am the...(?)
15.	Do You Remember (Mamma I'm In Love)	lyrics
Written by: Steven W. © Copyright 2016, All Rights Reserved. Use Permission Mamma, I'm in love. Mamma, he's all I, can think of. Memories of him, dance in my head. Mamma, It's so hard, to say how i feel. Now that, everything's mislead... Chorus: And the memories run wild, of the time we first met. Do you remember, I'll never forget... (2x) Looking up above, as you hang there. The flesh's torn, from your bones. I screamed, this isn't fare. For all of you, he dies alone... (Chorus:) Bridge Now here I lay, on bended knee. A born loser, at heart. Here I lay, naked before thee. I've decided to, make a start.. Chorus 2: And the memories run wild, of the time we first met. Lord do you remember, I'll never forget. (2x) Mamma, I'm in love. Oh, oh, I'm in love. Mamma do you remember, the night I fell in Love With my Saviour, My King, My Saviour, My everything... Mamma, I'm in love. Oh, oh, I'm in love....

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Up And Coming Debut Album Coming Soon!!! Currently recording, could come out sooner then 2021

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released December 12, 2021

Vocals: Steven D Wells
Guitar: Trevor Hocker

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Othniel Kerrville, Texas

We Are A Christian Band. Sound is Hard Modern Rock /Stoner Rock with Some Industrial Elements (i.e. Piano, Remixes & Other Electronics)

Othniel (meaning: "The all mighty Force of God" it can be found in the book of Judges as the First Judge.) ... more